my big girl panties are on.

well, kinda anyway.  i am thankful to have such wonderful friends who have reminded me many times over the last couple of days -- Truth.  He has this.  always has.  always will.  trying very hard to keep my eyes on the prize.

so, aside from me battling my anxious thoughts, what have i been doing?  better question might be what have i not been doing?!  this wacky brain of mine keeps me busy (and all those around me :) and gives me the illusion that i am in control.  i have thought of everything.  and then some.  ask abi and sam.  i have texted them a few dozen times with stuff they already know.  all that is a facade to cover up the fact that i.am.freaking.out.because.i.have.no.control.  sshhh.  don't tell anybody though.  ben reminded me, 'you've done this 30 times before, and it always turns out fine."  oh, yeah.  me of little faith forget about that.

i found out early this week that my perfect plan of coming home on thanksgiving day was imperfect.  say what?!  it was a fun couple of hours of rebooking tickets and coming to the hard realization that we be staying in hanoi for a whole lot longer than i wanted.  the good news is that i don't have to be fretting each day seeing that we weren't going to make a weds. night deadline.  my biggest heartbreak is that thomas will have been home from college and gone back to college all while we are hanging in hanoi.  sigh.  i miss that boy.  

alas, there's good news!  when we were in vietnam on a mission trip three years ago, our gospelink guide was a magical woman named grace.  everyone called her 'amazing grace' because she is!  she emailed me yesterday and said, "if the queen is coming to vietnam, i am coming to hanoi!".  i truly don't know why in the world she called me the queen, but everyday that is the only way she would refer to me.  she is flying up from south vietnam to spend two days with us, and i couldn't be happier about that!  

the last two things on my ridiculous to do list were: 1) write a blog post, and 2) paint my toenails.  heaven forbid i get to 90 degree temps. and have indiana winter feet :)  signing off until i write from the other side of the world!  got a 5:30 a.m. wake up call for a 9:30 flight.  Lord willing, we will arrive 24 hours later, looking and feeling just peachy LOL.  please comment below or text me (incoming free!) or something because i will be missing my life here.  alot.

my napkin from Bible study :)