little of this and little of that....

• i know how hard these trips are physically and emotionally, so why do i feel surprised when it is?  yesterday was incredibly hard, necessary, helpful, and needed.
• i miss my man and peeps at home.  badly.  like really badly.
• amazing grace arrived yesterday.  as always, i am in awe of His timing.  i didn't realize how important it would be for her to help esther and myself through the hard conversations with holt and the orphanage director.  esther trusts grace and is opening up to her.  while i so wish it was me, grace couldn't be a more perfect surrogate at this point in time.
• i will save details of yesterday for a future time when i have worked through it in my head.  a lot more.
• lydia, sarah, and phoebe are doing incredibly well.  i am very thankful to have them here.  having been the youngest for a long time, phoebe has 100% stepped up to the plate.  esther looks up to her, for sure.
• very grateful that none of us have been sick. very.
• dad, you would be very proud of us eating vietnamese food every meal :)
• on the adoption front, i continue to be impressed with holt and their desire to meet with esther many more times while we are here in order to continue helping her prepare for what is to come.  extremely needed.
• smurf's words of how well i am doing is sorely needed.  i feel weak and unable 
• the husband in the family we are traveling with is wheelchair bound.  it confines him, but it certainly does not define him.  the way he navigates broken and bumpy sidewalks and traffic is crazy amazing!
• abi is a rock to me on the home front.  that girl knows how to encourage and reassure me in ways that speak deeply to my heart. and she cares for the goats exactly as i would :)
• i miss country life!  the vast numbers of people (10 million in the city) and traffic are not my love language LOL!
• God has sent Godwinks to me in little ways that have been powerful reminders of Who He Is.  i love Him!